like many of my other posts, i can't believe that it has been a year since i've last posted anything here. i briefly wonder if i should close down this blog for good.
in my defense, i've been really busy trying to spend quality time with the kids, while at the same time, trying to impress my boss at work.
when did this happen? hasn't my top priority always been my career?
there was one pivoting point:
i brought my 6 month old for his vaccine. the nurse asked some routine questions about his development. i find myself flustering and turning to my helper for most of the answers. they were simple questions like if he could pass something small from one hand to the other hand. when my helper said he could, i wondered why i hadn't noticed this achievement. i am his mother, but another woman knows him better than i do. feels like i am his mother only biologically.
i used to leave for work around 7:30 a.m. and was back only around 8 to 9 p.m. i seldom took leave. i have done crazier things like working during my maternity leave (including going back to the office) as well as consider bringing my laptop to the delivery ward (KH gave me the ultimatum).
i decided to do something about being the missing parent. my kids' childhood days are never going to come back, and KH has made it clear that it is insane to have another kid just because i want to re-live the experience of having a baby, and in a way, make up for lost time.
so here you go. i am still a full time working mom, but i guess i'll just have to work harder on the "mom" part of it.
